I made attempts on compensating for it in sports, dating girls, etc. but there was no escaping it.  I decided to confirm it with a sexual experience with a guy when I was 18.  That experience bludgeoned into a repetitive experience in which I lost control.  I went to two psychologists and 1 psychiatrist - no one could "cure" me of being gay.  Finally, a good Catholic friend said to me "Marry a girl and you'll get over it." Not true.  It only hid more deeply my acting out.  In desperation, I heard of the group SAA and I took it as my last hope.  I have been attending meetings for over five months and am diligently looking for a sponsor.  I hear the testimonies of others and I finally have hope that things can change!!!